It's been a little over a month since my last entry. Boy was that a sad one...

I'd like to write a little about how my life's changed since I wrote that admission of guilt and regret. Over the Christmas holidays I did a lot of thinking, about me, about China, about my recently broken relationship, but mostly about my future. I came up with a plan, and now I've something to look forward to again. I can't say it hasn't been difficult, letting go of this grudge I've had for my life choices, so many things I shouldn't have done and so many hurtful words I shouldn't have said, but I figured it was time to go on, I'm sure he has too, by now.

Side effects include slight seclusion and complete refusal of ever engaging in a romantic relationship again. I'm getting my dose of romance through manga and fan fictions. But on the bright side, I'm doing a lot for myself, like taking care of my masters admission paperwork, losing weight and cutting out alcohol.

I'm feeling a lot better now, really. The other day a puppy jumped onto my lap and its owner said he liked my odour. Don't know if it's a universal thought but in Mexico we believe someone's odour is directly related to that person's amount of self-love. I'm choosing to believe that for now.